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Last of a Kind: I Finished My Book About Trauma Just Before the ChatGPT Era

Updated: Jan 28

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It took me years to write and finally “completely” finish my first book Traumatization and Its Aftermath. While my publisher offered more time, I soon recognized that the more I kept revisiting the pages, the more tweaks I felt compelled to make. I could have endlessly refined it, never truly certain if it was complete. I knew there was a need for a trauma book that was informative and comprehensive, but I didn't know if I had achieved my goal. This situation, I’ve heard, is common among writers or anyone who crafts something deeply personal.

So, I set a deadline on my calendar to submit the manuscript. I was warned that once I sent the files to my editor, there was no way back. Checking my calendar I can see that it says: Manuscript SENT!!!!! on December 13th, 2022. The following day, December 14th I noticed that there were Xmas sales adds everywhere. I had not thought of the time of the year I was living.

On Christmas day, I had a nice dinner and an animated conversation with my family. My son, full of excitement, wanted to share with us something that had ignited his curiosity like few things had before: ChatGPT. He tried to explain us what it was, it’s capacities, how it could make our lives easier, and how it could eventually change the world. I enjoyed his excitement but was not able to really understand what he was saying. However, a couple of months later, I was as excited as my son was. I started testing the AI chat’s knowledge and accuracy. Yet, my initial enthusiasm gave way to disappointment; the references were wrong or fictitious, the explanations were too ordinary and lacked depth, and of course, it missed the capacity to generate anything similar to critical thinking.

Still, not long after, I learned to use its conversational way to draft emails or find some very specific information. I used it as if it was an encyclopedia — a quick source of factual information.

And then, it happened. After I had completed an article on abuse, the thought crossed my mind to feed the piece to the chat and inquire if it could offer corrections. That’s when the unexpected occurred. This artificial intelligence took the liberty of crafting an entirely different article, altering my phrasing, my tone, my style, and even the information I had diligently provided! In just one interaction, I found myself stripped of ownership over my own work. Naturally, I dismissed its version, yet this encounter led me to a profound realization — how fortunate I had been to finalize my book before ChatGPT could have assumed the role of my “editor” or at least “copy-editor.”

My book would have been different. To what extent? Considerable. Once you have an “assistant” capable of improving or “refining” your language and suggesting “corrections” to your ideas, it’s only natural to opt for the “richer” and more accurate version of what you were intending to say. Unfortunately, by the moment the chat gives you its option, you may think that’s exactly what you wanted to say inadvertently losing some of the sentiment you had infused into your words — those feelings that may not have used the accurate, correct, or precise words and grammar. Our emotions show up in our punctuation, our repetitions, our examples. The chat often eliminates whatever seems obvious or repetitive, and inflections like that.

I can picture some writers arguing that they will edit what the chat edited to add their feelings. I have done that. I actually never deliver anything edited by the chat without re-editing it even if it’s a casual email. Yet, I can’t help but imagine how long it would have taken me to finish my book with this back and forth between the chat and my brain. Ideas come and go really fast, and the time that editing and rethinking would take could potentially kill the imagination and the freshness of the ideas.

If you have used any of the chats, you may have noticed that they use very baroque words and ornated sentences, or they make them extremely casual if you as to tone it down. Consistently, it makes all its suggestions longer. For example, the following paragraph from my book’s introduction:

It’s clear that there is a deep and widespread need to understand more about what traumatization means and how it operates in the brain. Since I had spent several years researching everything related to traumatization, I’ve felt motivated to respond to the range of questions about trauma that people have been asking: What symptoms do you need to have to qualify for complex PTSD? What happens if trauma is not resolved? How do you know if a child is traumatized? How does childhood trauma affect a person’s development and sense of self? and many many more.

could have become the following of I had asked the chat:

Undoubtedly, there exists a profound and prevalent need for a deeper understanding of traumatization — its essence and its workings within the brain. Having dedicated several years to comprehensive research on all facets of traumatization, I’ve been profoundly driven to address the myriad questions surrounding trauma that people consistently seek answers to. Questions like: What symptoms are indicative of complex PTSD? What are the repercussions of unresolved trauma? How can you discern if a child has experienced trauma? In what ways does childhood trauma shape an individual’s development and self-perception? These are just a few of the many inquiries that have ignited my motivation to explore the intricate world of trauma.

You can notice that the chat’s paragraph is longer — 16 words or 17% longer — which would have made my publisher either frustrated, or forced to ask me to cut 15% of the book. Besides the length, the chat excludes the feeling that me as author wanted to convey by using pompous or exaggerated words — I think it does that trying to imitate emotion.

Still, for those who have embraced the use of AI — including myself — I believe it’s nearly impossible to go back to live without it, much like our dependence on smartphones, smart TVs, and all the technology that has become part of our lives.

The conclusion I arrived at, at some point, is that my book will belong to a preceding generation. Nonetheless, I can’t help but feel appreciative and perhaps even fortunate to have finalized my manuscript prior to my son introducing me with ChatGPT. Having handled my manuscript almost at the same time of the ChatGPT birth feels somewhat similar to welcoming a child into a world where all newborns will be born after genetic engineering making them perfect.

The book cover in print and in digital versions
Traumatization and Its Aftermath

In that context, my book will be imperfect, marked by its own distinctive flaws even after rounds of meticulous editing by a dedicated team, not by a chatbot. I want to think that it will be one of the last ones that will carry the real essence of all my shortcomings and constraints. My hope remains that readers will wholeheartedly embrace my book in its “humanness,” written and edited before Open-AI language models became the norm.

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Antonieta, this morning I read an article about the dark side of using AI in publishing. It reminded me of this blog post, being about the opposite extreme, completely organic text written by a knowledgeable human. I swiped you just a paragraph: "AI has created a world where tech utopianists dream openly about excising the human part of writing a book — any amount of artistry or craft or even just sheer effort — and replacing it with machine-generated streams of text; as though putting in the labor of writing is a sucker’s game; as though caring whether or not what you’re reading is nonsense is only for elitists. The future is now, and it is filled with trash books that…


Antonieta, I have bit off a few pieces of "Traumatization...", and don't believe AI will ever match your "humanness" as Deb mentioned, nor the depth of your analytical thinking. Am very thankful for this post about the book being prepared without it, and hope it is not truly the "Last of a Kind".

Thank you so much for your many contributions to survivors of abuse!

Tony Olson of the NS&T space


Antonieta, I really appreciate this post. I have yet to use AI so it's very interesting to "see" your experience and reflections regarding AI and its impact in our lives. I'm very glad your book contains your "humanness." The book is so good, and your heart and brilliance are in every word. I wouldn't want it any other way. There is a deep connection between author and reader that wouldn't exist otherwise. All my best, Debbie

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